Father’s Day weekend, I bought Ragamuffin, a film based on the life of, you guessed it, Rich Mullins.
It’s been sitting on my desk ever since.
I’ve had writer’s block, been doing some productive reading, and keeping my head afloat school-wise. I work six days this week.
So, my life kinda sucks right now.
I tried to write today, but I don’t know what story to work on, or what to write for those stories. I put on the Rich Mullins, just to soothe myself a little, and eventually, just gave up and lay down. If I can’t be productive, I may as well be comfortable, and bury my face in a warm blanket and call it a day.
I don’t consider myself a Christian much anymore. I believe in God, and by extension Jesus—you can’t grow up in a Judeo-Christian worldview home and completely abandon everything you’ve been taught. Or,
I can’t anyway. I’m INFP (that’s my excuse, and I’m sticking to it! O.o)
I got The Itch. The last time I got The Itch, I read Carrie. Loved it, by the way. Well, I don’t know if I loved it, but I will certainly never forget it and may re-read it someday. I appreciate it, I guess you could say. But I digress.
It’s been Itching. Like sometimes a book will say, “Jadi, Jadi, read me, read me,” for a few days or so until I’m Ready For It, and this movie has just been kind of whispering, “Soon. Soon.”
Today, I decided, “Today’s the day.”
I’m well aware of how crazy this sounds.
So I popped it in my computer (I got rid of my TV and DVD player), and sat down to watch it.
It wasn’t really what I expected. They left out snippets of “The Jesus Record.” Just a little snippet of him at the piano playing one of those songs, and not “Be With You”—which is a great song, but still—would have been cool. And something about Canticles of the Plains and there was a lot of stuff I wanted to see but they didn’t put in the film.
Beside the point.
I watched it because while I was listening to the music, I was reminded of how soothing Rich Mullins’s voice is. How soothing the music is. Some people don’t like it, well, a lot of people don’t like it, but I always did. I don’t know why.
Lacey told me one time it was because of his dramatic death, and I’m a writer, so I like dramatic stuff. Her words, not mine.
Um, I was six when I got into Rich Mullins, and I don’t know if I had a flair for the dramatic yet. I remember liking the idea of someone giving their life to God, and let’s face it, the fact the guy was dead did have some sort of impact on my six-year-old self. Pity of a child perhaps for a dead person? Maybe. I do remember feeling sorry for someone that gave their life to God, and then dying the way he did.
The other thing I remember is that Ray Boltz was Mom’s favorite. Carmen was my sister’s favorite. Rich Mullins needed to be someone’s favorite. Might as well have been mine.
As I got a little older, I found some of his other albums. My mother and sister still prefer Songs, but I think my favorite album is probably The World as Best as I Remember It, Volume 2. My favorite song is “Elijah,” which is on the first album, Songs, and on any greatest hits album; and a close second being, “Growing Young,” which is on The World as Best as I Remember It, Volume 2.
It’s an interesting film. Not bad for something that was probably low budget. Makes me want to revisit The Ragamuffin Gospel and read all those Brennan Manning books I have in my Scribd library. Nobody ever got through to me like Brennan Manning, or could make me cry/tear up. I doubt I would even bother contemplating the notion of Jesus if not for Manning. I loved the bits with him in it, and I was heartbroken when I heard he’d died. But moving on...
I didn’t want to watch it at first. I was a Rich Mullins fan and why were they just now waiting to make this movie and what if it isn’t any good, what if it ruins my image of him...?
Anyway, I told myself again and again I wouldn’t bother with it. But then I started looking in WalMart and saw it, and bought it on impulse. It was there, and why not?
I want someone I know to watch it, so I can talk about it with them.